Reflections

Too much heart-pumping events for the past 2 weeks. Equivalent to an emotional roller coaster ride.

Cut things short: I have settled into the new job…not the new job but the OTHER new job. Twisted a vein in my left shoulder, spent a bomb on the Chinese sinseh and medicine, and today I twisted ANOTHER vein but this time on my RIGHT shoulder. I simply couldn’t resist messing myself up.

While my fragile heart muscles are still pumping away (albeit more slower now), my grey mass above has to do plenty of catching up.

Procrastination and fear (of many, many things and the effects of my actions) have never been my best of friends, yet they permeate every being of my body until I’m paralysed and unable to move.

Now is the time to shrug them off and catch up on those that I have lagged behind. As much as I admit man is selfish by nature (and so am I), I cannot put other people’s happiness after my own. I am just a small being on this humongous universe and there are people out there whom I can seriously help.

I once said this of someone whom I previously worked with, “It’s not that she’s not capable, she’s just not focused.” Now I find this very same sentence glaring back at me.

As my fellow Muslim friends are observing the month of Ramadan, I also seek forgiveness to those that I’ve hurt through my thoughtless words and selfish behaviour.

Time is short and there is much to be done.